Having started my blog (and being very excited) since my first post I have had not a second to do anything else! Sad, but true!
This morning I woke up to gloriously grey skies and a lovely gentle drizzle! It made me want to curl up with a favourite book, my cat and a MONSTER pot of coffee - alas it's not to be. I had to be at work at 7:00! Again..Sad, but true!!!
This weather may not be conducive to getting out of bed, but it is good for deep thoughts and strange insights into life, of which, since I have been awake I have had many- worldpeace, allowing people to be who they are, letting go of conflict and learning to forgive, loving the happy memories and leaving behind memories which have cause me pain.
Having had some very deep thoughts about Forgiving in the last few days, I have come to the realization that it is not something that happens overnight, it takes time, effort and constant reminders of the task at hand. Forgiveness is a two road I think and doesn't mean that I want to see you agian or be in your life again, all it means (this to me is significant) is that I'm stronger than the pain, than the heartache and the terrible events, it means that I can sleep deper at night as happier and more whole person!
But, how do you forgive yourself for hurting the once you love, for damaging an innocent soul, for takinf from yourself the opportunity of an untainted adulthood?
Having now splurged those thoughts I should attempt to do some work and earn some money! Back to the grindstone with my scary questions and the knowledge that I have many mountains fo paper to get through today!
Wishing you all the happiest day!
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